Just ignore the subject title. I can't think of a good one for some reason XD

College is going well. I realized that if I can get a lot done over the weekend, my weekdays will be a little freer. The key word being "little." I think after I finish this entry, I'll go and get some more work done. It's a little tricky though because I don't want to burn myself out, but I have a feeling that that's exactly what's going to happen if I keep working through weekends with little breaks. However, because of my good time management, I'm doing well in all my classes so far!

All classes except Physics 2: Electricity, Magnetism, and Waves. I feel so exposed because these topics are things I've never been exposed to before, and they don't click very easily. Sure, I do the homeworks, but that doesn't seem to help me with comprehension of topics as much as it used to in Physics 1 and other classes this semester. I haven't actually averaged out my grade yet, but I get the feeling it's in the B range at the moment, which I am not satisfied with. A minuses are okay IMO, but I REALLY want to bring my grade up in Physics to at least a B+. Not only that, I really want to understand the concepts. Looks like I'll be going into office hours a lot more this semester. Microeconomics, Writing Workshop, Mechanics I, Engineering Design, work, yearbook, and my private lessons are all going great though!

My roommate could be better, could be worse. I don't know why, but it freaking ANNOYS me to death that all I see him do is watch LOST and play games and stuff when he's also an engineering major. I know I'm about 20x more involved than he is, so he has much more time to get homework done earlier, but it still stupidly annoys be more than it should. At least he generally respects privacy and keeps the room clean although taking out the recycling and trash is another story.

And here's where I go off into this entry's Hello Project section XD After a rather slow 2009, H!P seems to be milking fan pockets this spring. Morning Musume, Berryz Kobo, C-ute, and Buono are all releasing albums within the next 2 months. Top that off with all the singles being released (C-ute, Guardians 4, Buono, Morning Musume, Mano Erina, and Berryz) and H!P fans are almost indubitably going to have their pocketbooks empty XD Honestly, I like most of 2010's releases so far. Although it caused so much drama, I enjoyed Shock. Going On was cute and good for Guardians 4. Our Songs is still amazing to me (there are parts that go against my musical intuition, but it's still really good IMO and much better than Bravo Bravo. I don't think it's going to overtake Rottara Rottara though). Onna Ga is pretty good too. Otakebi Wao Boy/Tomodachi are both really awesome songs too (mostly Otakebi. Tomodachi is a lot of sugar which I haven't heard too much outside of Shin Minimoni lately but still good).

And finally, Erika's graduation was epic. I loved her graduation concert. 6 person C-ute was really good and much better than the mere 5 we saw at Hello Project Summer.

Oh and I think I'm going to hold off on applying to lsreject_rpg for a bit until my school situation stabilizes a bit more. See you guys a bit later!

Hey guys! This is Matt, reporting in from the university! Yep, I've moved back to the dorms, and I'll be starting my Spring Semester tomorrow with Physics and Microeconomics! Lots of exciting things have happened!

First off, my best friend and I did a game exchange. In exchange for letting her borrow Persona 4 and Final Fantasy VIII, she let me borrow her PSP with Final Fantasy Dissidia and Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core! Bwahaha yes I will finally be able to play both which I have been OH SO looking forward to! I'm of course going to try and pace myself so that I don't play unless all schoolwork is done or it's a weekend. Video games are a total deathtrap for ignoring schoolwork, so I know I need to be extra careful. I haven't official started either one, so we'll see if I'm any good at these games XD

Next, my best friend (again XD) forced me to spazz about Final Fantasy 13's March release with her. OMG IT LOOKS SO FUN! We basically raided the internet for any videos and pictures of the game. We have predictions for our favorites already (she predicts her favorite will be Serah and I predict mine will be Hope =D). But yeah... the fact that I don't have a PS3 or XBox360 means I won't be able to play either one... I might try and save up for one that I can buy in the summer, but until then, I will just content myself with watching her play ever now and then when I visit XD

Revolutionary Girl Utena's ending was SOOOOO good! I WANT MORE XD Well... it had a lot of inappropriate moments in the 37 episodes leading to the finale *cough*, but it was still good! Next on the list of things to watch is either Soul Eater or Inazuma Eleven... I haven't decided which yet. I'm just REALLY glad that ryuu_rogue has been subbing the latter.

I've been listening to a lot of Mano's album lately. She has a somewhat different sound than the rest of H!P. Both Mano and S/mileage seem to be the groups most "true" to classification of standard JPop. I love all the twists the other groups have taken on JPop's definition, but sometimes, it's nice to just go back to the basics.

Oh and I watched Castle last night and I'm addicted. THANKS MOM! Horrible timing to make me addicted as I'm ABOUT TO START SCHOOL XD

And I think I'll leave it at that for now. See you guys later!

Edit: Oh I forgot to mention that after week or two, I'll be able to see how my workload is and whether or not I can take my favorite FF7 RP lsreject_rpg back up again <3

Translation? Hello Project EXTREME FANBOY SPAZZING ON THIS END (nothing but Hello Project in this post... sorry XD)! The preview for Buono!'s new single "Our Songs" finally came out... and IT'S AMAAAAAZING! DEAR GOD I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO IT! Not only that but THE PROMOTIONAL VIDEO IS AMAZING!!! I was so worried that Buono would disappoint me, but they blew me out of the water! This is TWENTY MILLION times better than Bravo Bravo, and honestly, it has the potential to yank title favorite song EVER away from Rottara Rottara! It has that "special" thing that Bravo Bravo was missing. Obviously, I don't know if it will hold its amazingness a few months later, but I have high hopes for it <3

( Seriously, just go watch/listen )

Oh yeah, Guardians 4's new song came out too, but Buono is totally eclipsing it. I probably won't be able to properly enjoy their song for a while XD ... And sorry to all the people who don't care about H!P since there's nothing else in this post XD

Haha yesterday my "cousins" and I played two games of basketball. As the nonathletic person I am, I don't think I've ever won a basketball game. However, there were three things helping me: (1) the basketball hoop was warped... which somehow meant that a lot more of my shots would go in; (2) the sun was positioned so that everyone was blinded when looking up at the hoop, meaning a lot of times people were taking blind shots; (3) I had the tallest freaking guy out of the four of us on my team. So... I won twice in a row :) Yay!

Now... don't kill me for sounding lame, but I broke two nails. When I first noticed it, I didn't really care. It wasn't the first time I broke nails, so I didn't think it would be that big of a deal. However, my left pinky nail was was torn particularly badly, and today I learned that this makes typing, playing the piano, AND playing the viola difficult >.> In particular, I don't want to develop the bad habit of placing my pinky really flat on the viola, so I'm avoiding practicing that altogether for now XP

On to some Christmas positives! I got a heating pad for my laptop, a handheld Sudoku game, a laptop screen cleaner (LOL), and some cash. It seems like the older you get, the more practical your gifts become.

I finally decided to replay FF8. Other than having to Draw for hours and constantly losing Triple Triad, I'm really enjoying the game XD I know there's that way to get magic through item refining, but I'm really attached to saving items and cards lol.

Oh and random topic switch but I got my grades for last semester! 3.882 GPA with 5 A's and 2 A minuses. It's not a 4.0 like I'm used to from high school, but there are much more important things to me than just getting a 4.0. I'm happier having a 3.882 with extracurriculars (yearbook, orchestra, and a having job) than having a 4.0 and only focusing on academics.

Anime... I've been kind of addicted to FF8 so I've missed the rest of the Tamers rewatch... >.> I'm kind of regretting that now. Apparently Darker Than Black Ryuusei no Gemini (I remember when I first started watching, I kept thinking, "RYUU-SEI BOY!" solely based on the title xD) stops at episode 12? It's kind of disappointing. I thought it would be as long as the first season, but it was pretty good and seems to leave the door open for another sequel. I'm a little confused as to what happened in the end, but I liked the ending. Stereopony sounds good too. I think I'll look them up :)

Another topic switch brings us once again to Hello Project XD Rock'n Buono 2 is an AMAZING concert. I was totally looking forward to a live Take It Easy, and I wasn't disappointed! They sounded particularly off on their "Shining! Shining! Shining!" but other than that, it was a generally strong performance. Morning Musume's new single sounds pretty cool. I think I'll enjoy this song as well.

And that's all for now. Talk to you guys later!

So, I picked Xenosaga 2 back up and finally finished that file where I stopped right before the final boss. I forgot how good Xenosaga is in terms of graphics O_O The colors are so pretty and the biggest problem I saw was Shion missing part of her face when next to a light XD

Also... why does Xenosaga 2's ending seem to offer much more closure than Xenosaga 3? ( Cut for Xenosaga 2 ending spoilers and some Xenosaga 3 spoilers xD )

I can't decide which game I want to replay. Right now, I'm leaning toward Final Fantasy 8, but I really should replay Xenosaga I so I can work a bit on Xeno Star ^^;;;;

In Hello Project realm, I am so stoked for Buono's new album and single! I adored Buono's second album. Usually after so much anticipation, I get disappointed, but I'm sure I will be able to at least enjoy it. C-ute's Shock! PV came out. And... wow so much Airi. I love listening to her sing, but I really feel sorry for the other girls. What I DON'T like though is how much drama it seems to be causing in the H!P fandom. Yes, this song is essentially an Airi solo and sucks in that aspect, but it's kind of scary to see how angry H!P fans are getting at this o_O Besides, it's a decent song, and the PV seems good as well (although the grey background closeups leave much to be desired).

In anime realm, I've finished watching the 11 released episodes of Darker Than Black: Ryuusei no Gemini. To be honest, at first, I didn't really care about Suou's story and what was happening, but the anime quickly won me over. I'm totally dying to see what happens next, especially after episode 11's ending.

I've also been playing a lot of piano recently. I hope to get one song in particular mastered before the holiday ends. Which song? That is a SECRET and I will try and see if I can record myself playing the song once I master it. I'm not very good, but I would appreciate any critiques and suggestions from you guys. I haven't taken formal piano lessons since I was about 6 (and by then, it was only about a year's worth of lessons).

And finally, I had a weird dream last night consisting of vampires. When I woke up, I immediately connected the idea of vampires to Twilight lol. My dream wasn't anything like Twilight (I've seen the movies but not read the books... I'll stop talking about this before I get attacked by both the Twilight fandom and Twilight hatedom lol), but it's funny how anything with vampires is automatically connected to Twilight in today's society.

Please don't murder me for the corny title lol.

Basically, I'm done with exams, so I went home early. However, instead of resting, I decided to go visit with some of my high school teachers and spent the entire school day at my high school. It's so great to get in contact with your old teachers. There's so much to say and so much to be thankful for. I've also gotten some confidence back which I lost in college (it's really rather depressing to not be confident in yourself...) Plus, I have a lot of friends who are still in high school. In particular, I spent a lot of time talking with some science teachers, my orchestra teacher, my calculus teacher, and my newspaper teacher. Everyone had such exciting news! My old English teacher finally had her baby! My newspaper teacher is getting married and she wants me to play at her wedding! They're killing block scheduling! ... Oh wait that's not good =/ I also saw a copy of the most recent Madison newspaper. I'm not sure how I feel since I'm not helping with it anymore (I really miss newspaper), but it looks pretty good!

In other news, I think I'll finally get around to continue reading Tsubasa in the three weeks I'm off. I need something to do so XD digitalrewind's Tamers season is about to draw to a close too. I'm so sad :( I think we only have the movie left. But yes, I'm gonna call it a night because I've been up since 7 this morning >.> Bye guys!

Bad or good? You decide XD Yesterday, I had my first batch of finals, but amazingly, I wasn't tired after that. I just really wanted to do something fun. So, I went clubbing NOT! lol. We actually just went to the movies... at 12:15 at night XD We watched The Princess and the Frog and it was really cute and funny. We got back around 2. Then I showered and got ready to sleep, but instead of going to sleep... I played video games. We played Super Smash Brothers Brawl... until 4 in the morning. XD After that, I really went to sleep and then I've been working on my Engineering take home final all day after that. I'm about to go do some more work, but I wanted to comment on something COMPLETELY unrelated.

... Darker Than Black is pretty good. ^^;;; After watching Code Geass, I think I got "toughened up" to gore, so the gore in Darker Than Black didn't bother me as much anymore. Once you get past that hurdle, the show's pretty darn interesting XD I finished the first season and I'm going to start on the second one either today or tomorrow.

Gonna go get some dinner right now. I'm kind of tired, so I'll probably go to sleep early too. See you guys later!

P.S. Oh and Ness is an awesome character to play in Brawl once you start compensating for the lag in his smash attacks. It actually catches a lot of people off guard too xD

( Real life woes )

I feel so tired. I think I might call it a night early, but I want to at least finish my mini-essay before I go. Bye guys!

Okay so today sucked because it was not only cold but rainy. Hello December; you made too bold of an entrance XD Furthermore, I was carrying my art project through the rain. LAAAAAAAAAME.

Okay but after that today became AWESOME because Buono's full PV for Bravo Bravo and S/mileage's full audio for Sukichan came out. I consider myself a pretty hardcore fan of Buono. I've loved everything they've produced... ever XD Bravo Bravo is cool, but there's not really anything I latch onto unfortunately. It may grow on me, but it's not my favorite Buono song. Don't get me wrong, it's a very good song! Buono always produces good songs, but I'm not that drawn to this song. It seems somewhat generic-ish and a desperate attempt to redirect Buono back to harder rock. And strangely, Miyabi's solo was a little weird o_O Miyabi usually sounds amazing. Ironically, my tastes always seem to be the polar opposite of H!P communities like Hello Online. They adore Bravo Bravo XD Still a solid song by my favorite group <3

Sukichan, on the other hand, is kind of outshining Bravo Bravo from my perspective. Maybe the Bravo Bravo wait was way too long and Sukichan is just passing, but I am absolutely ADORING Sukichan. Oh and S/mileage debut Spring 2010! 8D

And now back to Calculus III. Bye!

FOR A MEME LOL! From atelierjoh

Comment and I'll give you three fandoms, for which you must answer these:
01: What got you into this fandom in the first place?
02: Do you think you'll stay in this fandom or eventually move on?
03: Favorite episodes/books/movies/etc.?
04: Do you participate in this fandom (fanfiction, graphics, discussions)?
05: Do you think that more people should get into this fandom?

( Was given Morning Musume, Digimon, and Dark Cloud )

Honestly, I'm starting to become a bigger fan of the H!P kids units than Morning Musume, but I love the Big 3 equally at the moment (but they all fail compared to my love for Buono and previously W XD) Oh and new Shugo Chara episode was so cute. Rima and Nadeshiko lol.

Roommate quirks... COMING UP! XD Yeah I have a few minutes, so why not?

( Under the cut of course )

And on a side note... s/mileage's 3rd indies single preview sounds SO good! It's so much more energetic than their first two indies singles. I can't wait for the full version ^_^

Omg the Hello Project Summer concert coming out on DVD totally made my day <3

( I know a lot of you guys don't care so... XD )

And NON-H!P stuff. RPs... RIGHT I NEED TO GO CHECK TAGS XP Test Thursday. Orchestra concert Thursday. Scholarship banquet Thursday. Orchestra dress rehearsal Wednesday.... I think you guys get the trend though XD

Yaaaaaaaaaay I got a 74/80 on my Calculus III midterm. That is an A, the highest rank you can get on that test. I'm so proud! All of that studying really payed off! I got an 88 on my History of China midterm or a B+. There's room for improvement, but that's not too bad at all! In Chinese, we don't have a midterm, but I did get a 96 on my chapter test :) That's much better than the 86 I got on my first chapter test. Honestly, I might get a B in engineering for this semester, as I didn't remember everything I should have on my midterm, but I'll live lol. I work hard to get good grades, but I can't let getting a single B ruin my whole mentality. Otherwise, I would have given on my my Calc class when I got a 70 on my first quiz. Instead, I used that as inspiration to work harder, and look at the results! PLUS, my Calc test score is going to replace that low quiz grade :) I am a little bummed that we're getting SO much homework in Chinese though.

RP wise, I'm going to use the next two weeks as a trial. If I can keep up with damned and parameter_rpg (the two RPs I really want to stay in), I will stay and work through it. If not, I will have to drop one or the other or both.

Shugo Chara Party... *facepalm* The actual anime episode is so short, nothing can get done. Come on, we don't need it dragged out to 200 episodes. We just need high quality-filled episodes. CCS was a prime example of that. Only 70 (hah only lol) episodes but it was a REALLY good anime for everyone. No one felt like it had to be unnecessarily extended to complete with Sailor Moon and Naruto. Code Geass is pretty cool still. Lelouch and Suzaku just fought together against the fake Japanese rebellion and I was like "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW"

Berryz Kobo's Ryuusei Boy is a lot better than the A-side in my opinion. Of course, my opinions are extremely fickle, so that might change once I see the A-side PV. Can't wait to hear the full versions of both! I'm listening to the solo events for the Berryz members, and it seems like none of them can sing slow songs well XD I thought Miyabi would PWN at that, but her Vanishing Point solo sounded... weak? I think Berryz must have been really tired when they did that event. I mean they went on a 4-5 month hiatus after their 20th single. Right? Well Momoko sang Hare Ame Nochi Suki, but she couldn't keep her voice from shaking. She sounded ESPECIALLY good with the song Sakura Chirari though :) That song actually fits her voice a lot better than Gag100.

Anyways, talk to you guys later!

Literary present. Wow I had NO idea that existed. Maybe that's why I never did so well on AP exams XD So anyways, I've spent this past week revising my essay for freshman seminar a million times. And now... I am SO proud of the result XD I have no idea what grade this will yield, but yeah I learned a lot when it comes to writing literature analysis, I've learned a lot about the editing process, and I've learned that most BS that works in high school fails in college LOL. Whatever grade I get (assuming it's passing XD), I think I can be happy and proud of myself.

Orchestra is fun. I love the songs and I've become close friends with two viola players. However, I feel kind of stuck. I've been practicing so hard to make sure that when I play at rehearsals, it's as close to perfect as possible. Yet, when I look around, especially at my section, it seems like the entire section doesn't practice enough. That kind of makes me feel frustrated because I have to follow the leaders sitting in front of me (4 people) even if I'm sure they're wrong. It's just not cool, but other than that, it's really fun! Everyone's really friendly. We have some people that talk a lot, but I guess that's a given.

Yay Mano Erina! She got topped the Oricon Chart at #1 for a day. I feel like everyone in Hello Project EXCEPT Berryz Kobou is dishing out a lot of consecutive songs. I wonder if the fanbase will be able to keep up.

Code Geass is SO interesting at the moment. I'm at Episode 16-ish of the 1st season and I love how all the people tie together and how the truth is starting to get unraveled.

And my suite/roommates want me to think about the whole room thing and give an answer on Friday. I'm 95% sure I will say no, but that 5% is empathizing with that suitemate who came and talked with me individually. Right now, I'm still at the point where I'm saying no, but we'll have to see what changes over the next couple days (hopefully nothing because I really want my personal space XD)

When it comes to sharing a room with someone, you have to be assertive in what you're comfortable with right? Personally, I feel like I'm being pressured to do something I don't want because someone else can't be assertive enough.

( Predicament under the cut, if you care? )

So that's the story. Everyone wants me to consent, but I don't want to. Now I'm getting a guilt trip to go along with it. This is lame. Beyond lame. Someone save me please.

P.S. Positive stuff will come eventually. It's not like there's nothing positive, but I like to get this stuff off my chest.

... My journal has been full of negativity lately, hasn't it? Maybe I should take another whack at that positive meme in the near future.

So basically, I get the feeling that I should drop from all my RPs. Those of you who have me on IM have probably realized that I can barely even get online anymore, let alone RP. Yet, I don't want to drop from any of my RPs as they are the best RPs in the world T_T So you see I'm in quite a predicament.

New Shugo Chara... Ending to Shugo Chara Dokki was great! Shugo Chara Party... is just awful to be blunt. There's so much stuff in it that's not really needed. I know they have to experiment to bring freshness to the series, but from my perspective, this really really failed. Not only that, all of the Shugo Chara groups have disappointed me. Seriously, it makes me so sad to admit that I really don't like Buono's song... Guardians 4 was doing so well too. Omakase Guardians and School Days were great from my perspective. Party Time and Bravo... aren't. I'm so disappointed. Maybe it will grow on me, but as an avid Buono/Guardians 4/Shugo Chara fan waiting in anticipation, this really didn't fulfill. It seems like they want Buono to travel back in time to the very first single because it's like another attempt at that style, except the PV looks kind of cheap in all honesty. I... just don't know. I'll keep watching for a couple episodes, but this might divert me away T_T

In other news, Morning Musume's 41st single "Kimagure Princess" has KAMEI ERI as a LEAD SINGER! WHOOO I am so excited about that! She's not the best singer in the group, but I'm glad she's finally getting her turn in the spotlight :) She did of course have some more exposure in Nanchatte Renai than before, but never, from my recollection, has she had more lines than Tanaka Reina. I do like Reina as well though so I can't wait to see what this experiment will lead the group towards.

Edit: Buono's Bravo Bravo is already growing on me. I think the part that's turning me off is the cheerleading in the video XD It makes it look so cheap. If they were into their rocker outfits the entire time, it probably would be less weird. So I should probably just not watch the full PV as I listen to it lol.

Who your real friends are? It sounds so simple, but for some reason I find it so hard. Perhaps it's because I get offended pretty easily, but I feel so out of the loop, like I'm in a limbo with no friends who are close. I know a lot of people and I consider several of them friends, but it always feels like I'm being kept at a distance, perhaps even due to myself. I don't turn everything into a sex joke like the guys, and without history, friendship with girls can never seem to turn close. Really I didn't notice this until one of my friends dissed coming to dinner with me because someone else wasn't going... All of a sudden, he said he wasn't hungry anymore when he originally wanted to eat as well. My college experience has been a roller coaster. High school was so stable, but in college, I swing from extreme happiness to extreme sadness. If that's how the real world is, how am I supposed to fit into places? It's so discouraging. I know I can get through it and everything will be all right, but at this instant, I feel so sad and lost.

And good-bye Koharu. You weren't anywhere close to my favorite (in fact she might be my least favorite), but Morning Musume just won't be the same without you.

Shh it's college. Of course I have to use the genius girl Konkon for my icon XD

So last night, I had kind of a bad night. I was pretty down because I thought I offended one of my friends, and apparently that came off as being rude to other people because I didn't say hi energetically enough. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeah being told that I'm acting rude makes me pretty upset because I strive to be as polite as possible. Anyways, I found a nice, secluded place to retreat to and did some singing and dancing to help raise my spirits. I haven't been able to do that in a while because I'm so embarrassed to do so in public, considering my HUMONGOUS Hello! Project obsession dominating what I love to do XD Still felt kind of down afterwards, but I did feel a little better.

Yet today, has been an FANTASTIC day! I woke up and was told by one of my new friends that she really trusts me during breakfast (I really trust her too)! :) Afterwards, I went to History of China which was a little more interesting today, and Fourth Year Chinese for the first time! I was supposed to go Friday, but I had a little brain fart. At any rate, I LOVE that class. Sure, I can't recognize as many words as the prodigy guy next to me, but I haven't been able to speak and practice Chinese in so long either. Then, I proceeded to the electronics lab to clench my work-study job as an engineering electronics shop assistant! I've been considering electrical engineering for a while, so this should help me decide. Even if electrical engineering isn't for me though, I'm still dorkishly excited about learning how all that works XD I'll be working Wednesdays and Fridays from 11-4.

Oh but where it turns really good is that the person who I came across as rude to saw me again today. I gave her an energetic hello and she greeted me back much more friendlier and less demanding. It made me feel so good on the inside!

In Physics lab, we have a really really nice teacher and I met another girl (violist in fact!!!) who is also going to be in the Trinity Symphony Orchestra! =D Catherine! (spelling?) Anyways she's pretty nice too, and that means I'll have someone else to talk to during orchestra. She even lives in the same residence hall as I do! Orchestra starts this Thursday.

And finally, I want to mention reading seminar because that's what's been occupying most of my time (60-80 pages over two days X_X). Right now, I'm reading Frankenstein, which I've read before. However, I'm finding it much more interesting the second time around! I'm guessing it's because I already know the general happenings and can make connections/anticipate things. At the same time though, I don't really remember a lot of the novel, since I read it 4 years ago and it didn't make much sense to me back then.

Hope to be back to RPing soon btw. Hugs and lollipops~
Matt