Omg the Hello Project Summer concert coming out on DVD totally made my day <3

( I know a lot of you guys don't care so... XD )

And NON-H!P stuff. RPs... RIGHT I NEED TO GO CHECK TAGS XP Test Thursday. Orchestra concert Thursday. Scholarship banquet Thursday. Orchestra dress rehearsal Wednesday.... I think you guys get the trend though XD

Yaaaaaaaaaay I got a 74/80 on my Calculus III midterm. That is an A, the highest rank you can get on that test. I'm so proud! All of that studying really payed off! I got an 88 on my History of China midterm or a B+. There's room for improvement, but that's not too bad at all! In Chinese, we don't have a midterm, but I did get a 96 on my chapter test :) That's much better than the 86 I got on my first chapter test. Honestly, I might get a B in engineering for this semester, as I didn't remember everything I should have on my midterm, but I'll live lol. I work hard to get good grades, but I can't let getting a single B ruin my whole mentality. Otherwise, I would have given on my my Calc class when I got a 70 on my first quiz. Instead, I used that as inspiration to work harder, and look at the results! PLUS, my Calc test score is going to replace that low quiz grade :) I am a little bummed that we're getting SO much homework in Chinese though.

RP wise, I'm going to use the next two weeks as a trial. If I can keep up with damned and parameter_rpg (the two RPs I really want to stay in), I will stay and work through it. If not, I will have to drop one or the other or both.

Shugo Chara Party... *facepalm* The actual anime episode is so short, nothing can get done. Come on, we don't need it dragged out to 200 episodes. We just need high quality-filled episodes. CCS was a prime example of that. Only 70 (hah only lol) episodes but it was a REALLY good anime for everyone. No one felt like it had to be unnecessarily extended to complete with Sailor Moon and Naruto. Code Geass is pretty cool still. Lelouch and Suzaku just fought together against the fake Japanese rebellion and I was like "AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW"

Berryz Kobo's Ryuusei Boy is a lot better than the A-side in my opinion. Of course, my opinions are extremely fickle, so that might change once I see the A-side PV. Can't wait to hear the full versions of both! I'm listening to the solo events for the Berryz members, and it seems like none of them can sing slow songs well XD I thought Miyabi would PWN at that, but her Vanishing Point solo sounded... weak? I think Berryz must have been really tired when they did that event. I mean they went on a 4-5 month hiatus after their 20th single. Right? Well Momoko sang Hare Ame Nochi Suki, but she couldn't keep her voice from shaking. She sounded ESPECIALLY good with the song Sakura Chirari though :) That song actually fits her voice a lot better than Gag100.

Anyways, talk to you guys later!

Literary present. Wow I had NO idea that existed. Maybe that's why I never did so well on AP exams XD So anyways, I've spent this past week revising my essay for freshman seminar a million times. And now... I am SO proud of the result XD I have no idea what grade this will yield, but yeah I learned a lot when it comes to writing literature analysis, I've learned a lot about the editing process, and I've learned that most BS that works in high school fails in college LOL. Whatever grade I get (assuming it's passing XD), I think I can be happy and proud of myself.

Orchestra is fun. I love the songs and I've become close friends with two viola players. However, I feel kind of stuck. I've been practicing so hard to make sure that when I play at rehearsals, it's as close to perfect as possible. Yet, when I look around, especially at my section, it seems like the entire section doesn't practice enough. That kind of makes me feel frustrated because I have to follow the leaders sitting in front of me (4 people) even if I'm sure they're wrong. It's just not cool, but other than that, it's really fun! Everyone's really friendly. We have some people that talk a lot, but I guess that's a given.

Yay Mano Erina! She got topped the Oricon Chart at #1 for a day. I feel like everyone in Hello Project EXCEPT Berryz Kobou is dishing out a lot of consecutive songs. I wonder if the fanbase will be able to keep up.

Code Geass is SO interesting at the moment. I'm at Episode 16-ish of the 1st season and I love how all the people tie together and how the truth is starting to get unraveled.

And my suite/roommates want me to think about the whole room thing and give an answer on Friday. I'm 95% sure I will say no, but that 5% is empathizing with that suitemate who came and talked with me individually. Right now, I'm still at the point where I'm saying no, but we'll have to see what changes over the next couple days (hopefully nothing because I really want my personal space XD)

When it comes to sharing a room with someone, you have to be assertive in what you're comfortable with right? Personally, I feel like I'm being pressured to do something I don't want because someone else can't be assertive enough.

( Predicament under the cut, if you care? )

So that's the story. Everyone wants me to consent, but I don't want to. Now I'm getting a guilt trip to go along with it. This is lame. Beyond lame. Someone save me please.

P.S. Positive stuff will come eventually. It's not like there's nothing positive, but I like to get this stuff off my chest.

... My journal has been full of negativity lately, hasn't it? Maybe I should take another whack at that positive meme in the near future.

So basically, I get the feeling that I should drop from all my RPs. Those of you who have me on IM have probably realized that I can barely even get online anymore, let alone RP. Yet, I don't want to drop from any of my RPs as they are the best RPs in the world T_T So you see I'm in quite a predicament.

New Shugo Chara... Ending to Shugo Chara Dokki was great! Shugo Chara Party... is just awful to be blunt. There's so much stuff in it that's not really needed. I know they have to experiment to bring freshness to the series, but from my perspective, this really really failed. Not only that, all of the Shugo Chara groups have disappointed me. Seriously, it makes me so sad to admit that I really don't like Buono's song... Guardians 4 was doing so well too. Omakase Guardians and School Days were great from my perspective. Party Time and Bravo... aren't. I'm so disappointed. Maybe it will grow on me, but as an avid Buono/Guardians 4/Shugo Chara fan waiting in anticipation, this really didn't fulfill. It seems like they want Buono to travel back in time to the very first single because it's like another attempt at that style, except the PV looks kind of cheap in all honesty. I... just don't know. I'll keep watching for a couple episodes, but this might divert me away T_T

In other news, Morning Musume's 41st single "Kimagure Princess" has KAMEI ERI as a LEAD SINGER! WHOOO I am so excited about that! She's not the best singer in the group, but I'm glad she's finally getting her turn in the spotlight :) She did of course have some more exposure in Nanchatte Renai than before, but never, from my recollection, has she had more lines than Tanaka Reina. I do like Reina as well though so I can't wait to see what this experiment will lead the group towards.

Edit: Buono's Bravo Bravo is already growing on me. I think the part that's turning me off is the cheerleading in the video XD It makes it look so cheap. If they were into their rocker outfits the entire time, it probably would be less weird. So I should probably just not watch the full PV as I listen to it lol.

Who your real friends are? It sounds so simple, but for some reason I find it so hard. Perhaps it's because I get offended pretty easily, but I feel so out of the loop, like I'm in a limbo with no friends who are close. I know a lot of people and I consider several of them friends, but it always feels like I'm being kept at a distance, perhaps even due to myself. I don't turn everything into a sex joke like the guys, and without history, friendship with girls can never seem to turn close. Really I didn't notice this until one of my friends dissed coming to dinner with me because someone else wasn't going... All of a sudden, he said he wasn't hungry anymore when he originally wanted to eat as well. My college experience has been a roller coaster. High school was so stable, but in college, I swing from extreme happiness to extreme sadness. If that's how the real world is, how am I supposed to fit into places? It's so discouraging. I know I can get through it and everything will be all right, but at this instant, I feel so sad and lost.

And good-bye Koharu. You weren't anywhere close to my favorite (in fact she might be my least favorite), but Morning Musume just won't be the same without you.

Shh it's college. Of course I have to use the genius girl Konkon for my icon XD

So last night, I had kind of a bad night. I was pretty down because I thought I offended one of my friends, and apparently that came off as being rude to other people because I didn't say hi energetically enough. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeah being told that I'm acting rude makes me pretty upset because I strive to be as polite as possible. Anyways, I found a nice, secluded place to retreat to and did some singing and dancing to help raise my spirits. I haven't been able to do that in a while because I'm so embarrassed to do so in public, considering my HUMONGOUS Hello! Project obsession dominating what I love to do XD Still felt kind of down afterwards, but I did feel a little better.

Yet today, has been an FANTASTIC day! I woke up and was told by one of my new friends that she really trusts me during breakfast (I really trust her too)! :) Afterwards, I went to History of China which was a little more interesting today, and Fourth Year Chinese for the first time! I was supposed to go Friday, but I had a little brain fart. At any rate, I LOVE that class. Sure, I can't recognize as many words as the prodigy guy next to me, but I haven't been able to speak and practice Chinese in so long either. Then, I proceeded to the electronics lab to clench my work-study job as an engineering electronics shop assistant! I've been considering electrical engineering for a while, so this should help me decide. Even if electrical engineering isn't for me though, I'm still dorkishly excited about learning how all that works XD I'll be working Wednesdays and Fridays from 11-4.

Oh but where it turns really good is that the person who I came across as rude to saw me again today. I gave her an energetic hello and she greeted me back much more friendlier and less demanding. It made me feel so good on the inside!

In Physics lab, we have a really really nice teacher and I met another girl (violist in fact!!!) who is also going to be in the Trinity Symphony Orchestra! =D Catherine! (spelling?) Anyways she's pretty nice too, and that means I'll have someone else to talk to during orchestra. She even lives in the same residence hall as I do! Orchestra starts this Thursday.

And finally, I want to mention reading seminar because that's what's been occupying most of my time (60-80 pages over two days X_X). Right now, I'm reading Frankenstein, which I've read before. However, I'm finding it much more interesting the second time around! I'm guessing it's because I already know the general happenings and can make connections/anticipate things. At the same time though, I don't really remember a lot of the novel, since I read it 4 years ago and it didn't make much sense to me back then.

Hope to be back to RPing soon btw. Hugs and lollipops~
Matt

A period of extended free time that's not 1 AM XD. Well, I've picked out a tentative schedule with my academic adviser... and I'm slightly worried >.> Because of AP exams, my schedule is in dysfunctional. Seriously. I'm actually only taking 7 classes, but that's 18 hours total... Plus I think I need to do federal work study. That's a pretty intensive schedule. Not only that, but I have a block of 4 classes in a row on Tues/Thurs because they're only offered then. Thanks Career Point Collegeboard AP exams for killing me left-handedly XD

There are some positives though! Apparently I tested out of the first 3 years of Chinese *shrugs* Who knew? I'll be in Fourth Year Chinese... ohhhhh snap. My new roommate/suitemates are rubbing off on me XD I was sure I'd test out of first year, but I thought I'd only make it to second year. Chinese only goes up to Fifth Year Chinese so that means I've almost completed the program? O_o Anyways so that was unexpectedly pleasant. I will have plenty of practice with Chinese though, as upper level classes are ONLY taught in that language.

And yeah. Orientation is great. The university community is great. My roommate/suitemates are nice, although the former stays up REALLY late. I'm learning to sleep with his lamp light on, which is kind of weird for a person who's always had his own room and slept in the dark XD

Classes start this Thursday, so hiatus in my RPs will more than likely have to be extended, but I'll see if I can adjust well enough during this week though.

Good job Morning Musume fans! Nanchatte Renai wasn't able to clench #1 at Oricon, but they were able to claim #2 behind Ayumi Hamasaki (which is pretty good, considering her popularity). However, what I'm excited about is that the week 1 sales amounted to 54,973. The last time they had first week sales anywhere close to that was 2 years ago with Kanashimi Twilight and the last time they had first week sales higher than that was 4 years ago with Koharu's Iroppoi Jirettai debut! I hope total sales continue to rise and impress =D

And now meme time XD

1. Reply to this post and I'll assign you a letter.
2. List (and upload, if you feel like it) 5 songs that start with that letter.
3. Post them to your journal with these instructions.

Dre was mean and gave me Z. I barely have any Z's in my music collection, so here's what I scrounged up.

Zansho Omimai Moshiagemasu - Suzuki Airi
→ Japanese song and B-side to C-ute's Shochuu Omimai Moshiagemasu. It's a nice ballad, but nothing about it stands out to me, even though I generally like hearing Airi sing.
Zuei Chang De Dian Ying - Jay Chou
→ Chinese song in Jay Chou's On the Run album. It translates to "The Longest Movie" in English. Another ballad which I actually find nicer to listen to than Airi's.
Zhu Lin Shen Chu - Wang Lee Hom
→ Chinese song in Wang Lee Hom's Shanri-la. It translates to "Bamboo Forest" and is a rap/hip-hop song, I think. I'm not really sure. It's kind of hard for me to peg his songs in a genre XD If you can read traditional chinese, this is the KTV version so you can sing along =D
Zelmite Mines - Dark Cloud 2 OST
→ SEE LOOK WHAT YOU'RE MAKING ME DO DRE XD Finding obscure songs I don't listen to anymore. It's actually not a bad track. The bassoon line is rather catchy. (Or is it the English horn? I always have trouble telling apart band instruments...)
Zarathustra - Xenosaga I OST
→ I actually don't remember this song... I found it while searching on Youtube. Now I want to know when this song played. Anyone know? XD

We borrowed The Girl Who Leapt Through Time from the library, so I wasn't expecting much from it. It's a rather lengthy anime film, but by the end of it, I was in LOVE with it. It actually seems a lot like Spirited Away in retrospect. Maybe that's why I like it so much. Anyways, if you guys see it at your library or video rental store, go watch it. The middle does drag a bit, but I thought the rest of the movie more than made up for it (including the great songs by Oku Hanako). The ending theme is perfect for the movie. AHHHHH so squealish! lol

And I will actually talk about more stuff in my next entry cause it's getting kind of late...

Yay new anime is always fun to watch. From the_demon_yuber's suggestion, I've starting watching Code Geass. It definitely harkens closer to the Darker Than Black side of anime that I've seen, a far cry from my usual Cardcaptor Sakura and Shugo Chara, but it's good. I've watched the first 5 episodes, and it's kept my interest pretty well. I'm just like "Noooooooooo" that Suzaku and Leleuch (spelling?) are on opposite sides though. I think if I was in their shoes, I would've tried Suzaku's approach. And omg now they're in the same school. That's going to get kind of interesting.

I'm coming up on my last week of summer vacation. I move into my college dorm August 21st. Bah so excited/anxious at the same time. I might have to hiatus from all the RPs I'm in during that time because orientation will keep me busy and I need to see what I can handle while in college classes. That means I'll definitely be missing 4th shift at damned and possibly Dinner/beginning of Nightshift, and I might need the Parameter mods the handle the Timeline one week (that or they have to wait until I get back. Either works XD). We'll have to see. NEEEEEEEEEERVES. XP That also means I might miss a bit of digitalrewind TAMERS *hugs*

Guardians 4 PV should be coming out sometime this week. Not as excited as with Buono, but I support all Hello Project groups <3 (Except Koharu and MilkyWay... I haven't actually given them a chance because I hear enough Koharu from Morning Musume XP)

Yes! Buono's new PV finally came out! The dance is kind of simple, but overall, I like the PV. It's really cute and just shows them having a good time lol. When I heard the full version of the song for the first time though, I was kind of iffy about it. The preview made it sound a lot better, or so I felt. That's kind of how I felt with My Boy too, but now that I've listened to it a few times, it's starting to grow on me. I just don't feel like the instrumental break in the middle was that necessary though =/ Furthermore, the song is out of my normal vocal range (it's too high for me to sing) so I probably can't sing along out loud without discomfort =/ It's funny though cause with My Boy, they steal a cake in the PV, so everytime I played My Boy, my mom said, "THEY'RE STEALING CAKE AGAIN?" That transferred over to Take it Easy too, and my mom now says, "The poor girls. They keep getting on and off the bus." XD I know I said I was gonna dump H!P stuff in my Dreamwidth but I don't really want to... I'll try not to flood your journals with H!P nonetheless XD

Oh and another great thing! Driver's license... GET!!! Yes I passed the test yesterday! *dance dance* I also got a letter in the mail about a $500/semester for 8 semesters scholarship so I'll be adding that to my financial aid letter soon =D

I'm doing well on the Tales of the Abyss replay. I've gotten Mieu Fire 2 and Mieu Wings, both of which I missed during my first playthrough. I've already surpassed my original file in playtime, and I only just finished the Tower of Rem.

Library volunteering is okay. I just had a bad day today though, as we had a daycare bring a busload of kids while I was trying to shelve books. Yeeeeeeeeeah that didn't work out too well. I couldn't really shelve while they were there, and they messed up the sections I had fixed within 5 minutes...

digitalrewind is helping me get back into the iconing mood. I've taken on the challenge of making icons for every episode we watch during Digimon Tamers, so I'll probably have a huge batch of Digimon icons to post at silverduet by the time that's done.

And I think I'll leave it at that for now. Bye guys!

No I did NOT crash my car lol. My dad took me driving for the first time today... and I think a lot of you guys can share my sentiment. Driving with your parents is NOT fun. It took me a long time to get used to my mom. Now my dad keeps telling me stuff I already know and chastising my driving. I know I'm a new driver but bah let me concentrate on driving and not focus on translating Chinese into English in my head. There are enough things to think about. That and I don't understand how I can parallel park perfectly 10 times with my mom and then somehow I get like 1/10 with my dad. I hope I can stay calm and focus when I'm testing.

Engineering majors at Trinity get literally NO time to breathe. Their scheduling is so harsh. I might not be able to do the three electives I really wanted (Chinese, Orchestra, and Newspaper) =/ Well I will FIND a way to do orchestra... but no lessons I guess XD I passed the online alcohol course (thank god... that was pretty boring >.>). Last thing I need to do before the semester starts is take that Chemistry placement exam. I think I'm running out of time too. I better hurry o_O

Tales of the Abyss is really addictive. I'm on my first replay of the game and I love it all over again. FOF Transformations also make it really fun X3

Rewatched one of the first episodes of Shugo Chara today, and I just realized how dark Shugo Chara got the longer it went. The first arc with the original Guardians was all happy-friendly-YAY in contrast to the newer episodes' EMO-EMO-EMO! I love both aspects, but I just kind of like the originally happy-friendly-YAY better... you know?

Annnnd I think I'll leave it at that. Happy late Odaiba Day for Digimon fans =D

This is the new icon I totally wanted to have. It's so blue... and soft... and has Chihiro so that's cool XD

So I decided to replay Tales of the Abyss but I can't decide on what to buy in the grade shop, or if I want to buy anything at all. Half the fun is leveling up to learn the attack and stuff. What do you guys think?

digitalrewind Tamers fans are insanely epic. It's day one of episode discussion and we've reached 660 comments already. It was so fun.

So I got a nostalgia kick now that I've finished my college assignment and I want to revive xeno_battle and xenorating. Since the latter is less demanding, I've started with that. If I find myself with some extra free time in college, I'll do xeno_battle too but I don't want to overload myself, ya know?

Kevin... should be the final boss. Seriously. He's not THAT hard of a boss, but for some reason, he can pull off an attack that can KO all three of your characters at max health O_o I beat him the second time of course, but seeing that Game Over screen was kind of depressing XP

Annotated Bibliography finished *salute* I'm going to submit it tomorrow. No more worrying about that! Bwahahaha. Next on the list of things to worry about, taking the Chemistry Placement exam...

Another random topic switch. Have you non paid account people ever found an icon you just totally want on your journal, but you don't want to delete anything? Yeah I just got that today xD There are some icons that I don't like as much anymore, but I don't want to delete them because of nostalgia XD I might end up switching one out tomorrow though.

My left thumb REALLY hurts for some reason. I have no idea why, but it just does, which creates MAJOR problems when playing the viola. I've been letting it rest for a few days by not practicing but it hasn't gotten better yet. It's happened before too, so I'm a little worried =/ *hugs viola* I WANT TO KEEP ON PLAYING [/drama king] ^^;;;

Digimon Tamers is getting a lot better. I think the first episode in particular starts out REALLY slow, but it gets better around episode 3 onward. Or, maybe the shoujo factor is wearing off. IDK XD

Basically, I had posted that I was going to update Xeno Star with the new Xenosaga III section by the end of the week. I had a lot done, so I thought it'd be zip-zip done after an hour or something. WRONG. I totally forgot that Xenosaga III was the section with 50 pages of screenshots, all of which had to be edited. Thank God for the replace function, otherwise I'd still be going *copy->paste; copy->paste* So yes I did finish it in time. Please have a look!

http://xenostar.etherealdestination.net/xenosaga3/

In other news, I want to ask Tsunku shush, I can pretend he will read this message to HURRY UP AND GIVE US THE NEW BUONO SINGLE PV. Baaaaaah I love the preview of "Take It Easy" so much. I want to listen to more than 1:30 of it please <3 I'm trying to restrain myself from making a 90% Hello! Project post. I might have to redirect myself to Dreamwidth after I'm done with this ^^;;;

Xenosaga III playthrough is almost complete. It's weird though because I'm way over-leveled in this playthrough. I'm about 5 levels away from my master file's level and I still haven't finished all the secret bosses and the main story *is in Michtam right after Mary awakens*

Uhh I ran out of Shugo Chara episodes to watch. I'm so disappointed! I don't want to wait one week to see one episode >.> I love Nagi's new Shugo Chara. It's a perfect foil for him, so I want to seen more than just 2 episodes of it so far XP So, right now I've turned to rewatching Digimon Tamers with digitalrewind. It's not that I don't like Digimon Tamers. In fact, it's one of my favorite seasons, but it feels so bland after Shugo Chara I guess that's what I get for switching from Shoujo to Shounen right off the bat XD

I'm debating whether to replay Tales of the Abyss or Star Ocean III after I finish Xenosaga III. Anyone want to help me decide? XD

Translation: SUCCESS!!! Hakox level 5 isn't that hard. I am happy and in retrospect crazy to say that I have beaten level 5 and and thus the proud owner of Jr.'s Xenosaga III ultimate weapon! Now if only I had the patience to get 99 Sephirotic Canes so I can get Ziggy's >.> Anyone know a shortcut for that?

Also, I just noticed, but Nanchatte Renai dance shot outfits look JUST like black versions of MOMO's Episode III outfit =O

>> Morning Musume
>> Episode III MOMO

Maybe I'm just being dorky and linking two things I like? I dunno *shrugs*

Anyways, I'm done with 2/3 of the annotated bibliography. It's hard to find scholarly sources that aren't encyclopedias...

Lol two simultaneous plots have sneaked up and taken me by surprise XD Zombie plot at damned is pretty epic. Of course, Sakura is freaking at the moment, despite reuniting with her Yue/Touya/Fai I'm surprised she hasn't said "HOEEEEEEEEE" yet XD. I am not sure what we're planning on doing, but I imagine our main objective is to find a safe-haven. And from Court's description... that's kind of unlikely to happen anytime soon...

Chaining plot at realityshifted is making me pretty excited too. Wyatt's going to be chained to a systematic drilling freak, the complete antithesis of Wyatt, so that's going to be pretty fun! MJ and I have already plotted out a lot of the details. I just realized that we forgot to pick what we're going to do first, but that's okay. I guess I'll have to catch MJ online tomorrow.

Shugo Shugo! OMG Ikuto *whack whack whack* YOU'RE SO STUPID XD I just watched the episode where Amu breaks Tadase's heart because Ikuto has been crashing in Amu's room. OMG it broke my heart.... Yes I'm like a 10-year-old girl at heart >.> Oh and for the record Eliza, I finally saw Amu go "HANYAAAAAAAAN!" at Tadase. Man, I'm almost done with the released Shugo Chara episodes. It kind of hit me once Omakase Guardians and My Boy became the themes, as those were only recently (like 3 months ago I believe) released by Guardians 4 and Buono. I'm going to miss it once it's over. =/

Man I hate that we have to read a nonfiction book for a summer reading. It's not a bad book by any means, but it's so... not appealing to me. I think I've been watching too much anime XD

Before I get to the title, I have a crazy announcement. I bought a second copy of Xenosaga III >.> I saw it at Walmart for 20 bucks so I jumped on the opportunity (since Amazon was selling it for like 100 bucks. Talk about price inflation cause of no new supply O_O)

Okay now title XD I actually don't have insomnia but I haven't been able to sleep because I'm getting bitten by bugs as I sleep. The weird thing is, I got up in the middle of the night to examine my mattress and room, and I didn't see any bedbugs or mosquitos. I'm probably going to have to take a nap later on the couch or something. I'm already yawning =/ I'll try and get the Yuffie tag in before I take a nap though. Sorry it's taking so long.